Losing it...

Lately, I have been feeling uneasy and restless. There were times that I cannot function. Lost and with no direction, I was walking for hours trying to figure out what to do. Went home, opened my notebook and stared at the screen for hours. Tried processing a couple of photos, but to my dissmay, the results were unlikely of me.

I lost the drive. I lost the eagerness. For the Nth time I found myself in the same predicament. To proceed or not too. To say somethin, or to shut up. To see or to forcefully blind myself. To these I have no answer.

I have goals to reach. I want to achieve something. I want to excel. I want to make myself special. Something that would differentiate me from the rest. Yes, I am trying to prove that I am good. I know I am. But good things doesn't come my way. For some reason, all are against me. I am a lone wanderer, traveling down the winding road which leads to nowhere.

I am glad I have my friends. My friends who have accepted me for what I am. Who has stuck with me inspite of my imperfections. Who saved me a couple of times. Who welcomed me open arms. Who hugged me closely, tightly.



There's no need for me to change. I am perfect. I am good. I am who I am. God made me this way.

Thank you Lord.