Skin deep

God will make a way

God will make a way

Where there seems to be no way

He works in ways we cannot see

He will make a way for me

He will be my guide

Hold me closely to His side

With love and strength

For each new day

He will make a way

He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness

He'll lead me

And rivers in the desert will I see

Heaven and earth will fade

But His Word will still remain

He will do something new today 

Friendship?

I had enough. So be it. I don't need nobody.

Angst

I was trying to prove something. I was trying to get someone to understand. I have been trying for weeks.

Today, I still feel the same way. I want others to understand and to know. I want everybody to ask. Why? Because I am surprised why no one has dared ask me. Not a single person approached and asked me what happened. I came into conclusion that they already have talked to whoever, and gotten there whatever side of the story. I maybe wrong, and probably is. But why the silence? Can you blame me for asking?

For weeks, I faced this dilemma alone. I have no one to talk too. I don't think anybody would understand how that felt. Zero. Nodda. None.. Nobody. All I needed was for someone to tell me, that I didn't do wrong. I want re-affirmation that I did good. I don't want to put blame to others, but wanted for others to see the right in me. Or, again, I maybe wrong. I maybe at the wrong side of the boat. I maybe the one to blame. Maybe that's what I really needed, someone to knock the hell out of me and tell me that I fucked up.

If a person is open to the idea that he maybe wrong, shouldn't we give him the benefit of the doubt, and possibly consider the idea, that he maybe right after all?

Proving who's right and wrong is a lame excuse. It's unprofessional and an immature way of thinking. But sometimes the solution to a problem is going back to basics. Who did what and why? Another point to consider is the present situation. Who has what, and who has nothing? What changed and what did not? Who's smiling, who's crying? Who's utterly boasting, and who's self keeping?

Am I expecting others to think the same way? Yes!!! A hundred gazillion Yes!

But honestly... no.

I don't expect for others to understand. I don't want others to know. I am not wanting for everyone to ask me, why and what happened.

You know why?

Because no one in this world would understand how I am feeling right now....

Lost, just like that...

Supposedly it was a simple task, re-allocate a file partition to the OSX partition so I'll have more spaces for more apps. I typed in the command, made sure I had the right number, 2 and 4. Not 4 and 2. Made sure again, 2 and 4.... then crossed my fingers, pressed enter, then....

Then viola, it did not only merge partitions 2 and 4, but also merged the partition in between - partition 3.  My data files/photos were all saved in the 3rd partition!  That's about 40GB+++ worth of photos, deleted in an instant! I knew I should have waited for the mybook backup to complete! Argh! Patience is a virtue! But that's not only it. Windows XP won't boot no more. Leopard won't boot either. I killed my notebook!!!  Waahh!!!

Scrapped the 10.5.0 disk image and did a 10.5.1 (Kalaway) full installation. Had initial problems with Audio and Video. But after a couple of "googling around" was able to find the fixes and all is now working fine. But what an improvement! Less lag, it's faster, more apps opened, more space for apps! Yahoo!!!  The screen shot shows I'm backing up everything this time. I learned my lesson. Lolz... 

I have 600GB worth of space to fill-up. Plus I still have a spindle of DVDs.  No photos.  Walang gana... 

Clueless

It helps not to know. For knowing only brings complication.

karapatan ng bata...

1. Maipanganak, magkaroon ng pangalan at nasyonalidad.
2. Magkaroon ng mag-aalaga at mapagmahal na pamilya.
3. Mabuhay ng mapayapa sa isang komunidad and mabuting kapaligiran.
4. Makakain ng sapat at nagkaroon ng aktibo at malusog na pangangatawan.
5. Magkaroon ng edukasyon at mahubog ang kanilang potensiyal
6. Karapatan sa paglalaro at libangan.
7. Magprotektahan laban sa abuso, pagpapabaya, karahasan at panganib.
8. Madepensahan at matulungan ng pamahalaan
9. Mapahayag ang kanilang mga saluobin at pananaw.

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ako din, may karapatan.

Going Home...

Going home, going home
To the place that I love to see
There's a light, that's shining on my window
And it's shining just for me
Going home, going home...

Going home...

--- 1986
--- 1995
--- 2000
--- 2002
--- 2008
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From experience

Everybody takes risk at one point in life.
It's just a matter of courage and
attitude towards the outcome.
~ Justine

A premonition...

It's just a matter of time and it will happen.
The truth will be told.
And that we will finally prove...
that I was right after all.

Unclear...

Aliwan Festival 2008CCP
Complex, Pasay City, Philippines
May 3, 2008



Where to go... What to do...

The drive... the passion...

Aliwan Festival 2008
CCP Complex, Pasay City, Philippines
May 3, 2008

I lost...

Maling akala...

PWC April - "Colorful Jeepney"

the judges had other things in mind. Hahaha!

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Maliit na butas lumalaki, konting gusot dumarami...

Hindi mo maibabaon sa limot at bahala...

Kapag nabulag ka-hah-ng maling akala.